Another month, Another change...

As each month comes to a close, it reminds me of how long I haven't seen or spoken to Rob. I don't miss it at all. Rather I am proud that Ive gone another month, on my own. No help from no one. A month of no drama, another month.
Rob was always such a negative creature, and that's something that's not lingering around here no more, the negativity. I try with every ounce of my being to be positive, each and every day. Sure theres the odd, "off" day but for the most part, positive is the way I try and live. It seems the biggest drama I have now is, whats for dinner. That is much easier to deal with, than things of my recent past with Rob. I don't need to deal with the post work crap. When I finish my day, its done, where as with Rob, work drama carried its way over into our evenings, and really, I didn't care to hear about it. After 5pm, for me, is not work time. There was a summer when Rob first got into the mortgage line of work, where its all I heard. A whole summer of work bullshit, when it should have been, unwind time, chill time.
These days I come home, go through my daily routine, busy myself with projects and personal things I need to take care of, and enjoy my evening with a drink. Sometimes TV, sometimes some tunes...and the occasional adventure out.
A friend asked me last night to tell her how I was "honestly" doing. I told her I was fine, that I haven't felt this good about life in a long time and that true. A different attitude on life I think. I did say thought that 2009 has to come to a close. That I'm living it up on 2010 - I hit 40 late next year and my life will start all over. Ive already made changes and am proud of them, but once all of 2009 is done, a new Franco will appear in 2010. Planning solo vacations, planning to move into a new home if possible. Remove myself from this area as it seems that memories, mostly bad at this point in my life, linger around..so a fresh start in every way, is in the works. Its almost exciting.
Its funny how, being single now, living alone, sort of reminds me of being in London all on my own. All the time in the world for me. Sure it gets boring or lame at times, but not every ones life is go go go, plus its not possible at my age. But that sense of independence, that sense of "its up to me" is a good feeling. There are still so many things I have to learn to do on my own, but it will all happen and come in good time. So far the rides been easier than I thought and again thanks to the right attitude and the right people...its heading in the right direction -
Ahhhh change is good and well needed!