September 10, 2009

Defintions?

Rereading some of the entries, other memories filter through my mind -
The post about my asking Rob if he had cheated...I remember asking or saying to him rather, "you left my apt, went and slept with someone else and then came back to me and kissed my lips" - he went silent. He said "I didnt sleep with anyone"...
Now as far as Im concerned...even making out with someone, is leading to cheating, is cheating as its stemming from something.
Rob professed not to have slept with said "trick". I remember saying - "so you left my apt, went and sucked some guys cock, and then came back to me?" and after a lengthy pause, I got a "yes" - Did that not constitute, cheating? The fact that you didnt cuddle in bed, with this one in particular, not make it cheating? Cuz you didnt wake up with this one in the morning, rather you raced home to shower and get rid of any "manly" scent before coming back to stay with your current boyfriend, not make it cheating? Its cheating my friend, adultery, deceit and all of the above.
I think he lives in this fictious bubble and feels he is invincible - not so.
I remember my gal pal saying to me years ago..."Maybe he wants to get caught" -
Either that or he is the worst liar and cheat Ive ever known. He was and is no good at lying this is why it kills me that he cant be a real man, an honest man. If everytime you lie you got caught, wouldnt it be easier to be honest? At least if youre tellin the truth, you cant fuck it up as you are telling it like it is. Theres no need to think of what story you had made up -
I think its all an illness with him, some deep psychological mental illness. Not one that I have an ounce of pity for.
There used to be the woman who lives in my bldg and she was a crack head - The Crackhead of Regal Rd - For this woman, I had absolutely zero pity for, she was causing her own demise, to the point where, within months of moving out of Regal Rd, she was found dead. I remember when I was told of her death, my response was, "no great loss really" - I could care less that she had dropped dead and far as Im concerned she was better off that way. That really was the first time I had no pity for someone passing, she really was a waste of human life - Enter Rob...
After all the continuing sick and twisted shenenigan hes pulled, he has sunk to the level of - The Crackhead of Regal Rd - He too is probably better off, off this planet - So there now are 2 people who Ive encounterd, that are true wastes of human lives - Sad really that they have sunk to that but hey, better them, than me :)

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