A Hairpin Turn Upon My Arrival....

Here we are in May of 2010 - Wow time kinda flies. When I realized yesterday was the end of April, I remembered that last year at this time, I was off to London, England for a solo adventure thru the city, on me own. This vacation would end like no other holiday before. Not while in London, but upon my return home. It was during my stay in London I was suspicious of funny shenanigans going on at Regal Rd, but would have to await my arrival home to investigate further. I remember, it would be about two weeks to the day that I got home...exhausted from my flight and just the hectic day that traveling brings on...I went on to comment how clean my apt was. I was being sarcastic upon arriving to my apt with Rob. He apparently was too busy to clean, but was able to wash my sheets? He went on to show me his new mobile phone, which honestly, wasnt to my liking, but I didnt have to use it. I recall how protective he was, not leaving me with in my hands, he was standing by me while showing me, I couldnt take it into my own hands, on my own and go thru the functions of the phone. I realized eventually he was trying to hide things in the phone, i.e. messages etc. It was then that I decided I have to look into this as I knew there were too many signs, too many indications that something was going on, something I would not like to be involved in. It wouldnt be til the end of May of last year that things would fully explode. Although I am in a better head space than I was at the time, my thoughts of getting rid of Rob were imminent. I was realizing that this was a trip of a different kind and had been for I dont know how long. MSN messages while I was in London read, "I miss you so much more this time that you are away"...I will say, that at the time, it was nice to read those messages. I remember trying to communicate with Rob via MSN cam. I think that, if anything, didnt make Rob happy that we could actually see each other, but that now Rob realized he had a cam on his laptop and could expose his vile body and face to the web, which I eventually witnessed for myself, without his knowledge. Honestly seeing that, made me howl with laughter. I had a great time while I was in London last year. Kept busy met up with good friends, old friends as well. I remember having some of the Acacia Africa group record personal messages for Rob. I was thinking of him while away, thinking of him in a good way, until I started getting "odd" messages from him. I recall standing outside Boy George's house, with a fellow fan...getting odd texts from Rob. I remember saying to this fan(whose name escapes me now), that I was getting odd messages from someone back home...Rob at that time seemed to be in a hurry to switch plans and phones. That raised a suspicion. and rightfully so. I knew Rob so well, I think I knew more than Rob thought I did. He tends to forget that this pattern had repeated itself many many times over the course of our knowing each other. Rob was a scatter brain remembering things that DIDNT happen, trying to convince me otherwise...though he was wrong. I remember the dumbest of things, but sometimes that worked out to my benefit, and in this case especially.
A year on now from my departure, I remember feelings of excitement! Meeting up with the Acacia group was surreal, from the outback bush of the African flat lands to the metropolis of London, England. Many hadnt seen me with painted eyebrows and clean shave and finely dressed and put together. My London "possee" and I, had a grand time for the better part of the 2 weeks I was in London. It was the return home that would bring on the dramas that would change m life after 15 years. Change Robs life after 15 years, though having carried on those habits, behind my back for the better part of that time. This is when I realized, when I saw the true, true colors that shined from Robert. It was this last vacation, that made me realize I am worth sooo much more. There are people who are NOT like Rob. That Rob wasnt worthy of my time, that my life was on a weird, kind of hold with Rob in my life. London was a blast for the most part, somewhat movie like adventuresome but the adventure would take a hairpin turn, upon my arrival...
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