Excited, Nervous But 100% Rob-Free

Well chatting to people, newer people, its as always, fun to tell my tale as to why I'm single. I get asked that allot, i guess most single queers do? Befriending a guy whose main objective is to get into my pants, but i don't play that way. I do however, chat them up as means of meeting new people even if its through other people. Regardless, I told this one guy, a nutshell version of the last couple of years of my life. Asked if I date and I reply, no, as I don't. I meet up sure, date, nope. Asked why and my response is, I don't trust anyone and befriending new people is tough as it is, let alone dating. I wasn't like that before. I explained how events that happened throughout my relationship that made me, changed me into the cunt I am today. Its not as if I don't like the cunt I am...but it wasn't always the case. Thanks to what Rob did to me, it had made me jealous person, a very protective person, all the while being taken for the longest ride of my life, therefore, trust isn't there. I don't play victim at all, but I don't trust. I was told to "live a little now" which what I'm working on, and changing. I told my new friend that at this point in my life, its all about me and no one else, to which i was applauded. Its tough to get back into the swing of things after such a long long time of living a sorta sheltered life. Life, when i was with Rob was just life with the 2 of us at Regal Rd. There was no life otherwise. Potheads who flopped on the sofa was the existence we lived. I broke that mold and have changed a full 360 in comparison to a year back. A year go this time I was on holiday in London only to come home to a drama that would unfold in the weeks to come. Its made me a better person, it has brought Franco back out, living again. Someone said the other day, "you re going out more"...Yes I am, I have to, I want to. I missed out on allot thanks to Rob with no gain after all those years together. Asked if I was angry. I said, not angry, but I haven't nor will I forgive. That I don't ever want to see him, ever, again. My life is so much better without him. The weight of drama I carried around, for years and years(after reading old journals)is gone. I have minimal drama now. With life in general, with guys, with everything. Its so odd that I'm not a miserable mess as I thought I would be. My move will be the final nail in the coffin, in respect to ridding Rob completely out of my hair! As of June 4th when I depart Regal Rd, it will be, the next chapter. The first chapter was life with Rob, the second chapter was, life without Rob and this next chapter...
A New Beginning!
...and I'm looking forward to it.
Cant wait, excited, nervous, but Rob free, 100%!
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