That Is So Fine With Me...

So as I move closer to my moving date, as well as getting the odd little thing set for it...I tend to take breaks and think...Thinking is never a good thing, though it does make me analyze certain things. Moving into the "Village" as it is called, has its ups and downs. Ive lived there before, back in my late teens. I enjoyed it but was caught up in the whole partying scene. I was unemployed and a youth with just one thing on my agenda - partying and having a good time. Fast forward about 20 years, and Im headed back to that part of town.
While I was with Rob, after the first few, 3 maybe 4 years, we did not venture out there any longer which was fine with me. The thing is, due to Rob's disgusting queer secretive lifestyle, Ive turned against the gay community - As Ive mentioned before, I dont support gay causes, marriage etc. Most of this is due to thinking, that all queers were like Rob. Most are, dont get me wrong, I have not seen the light and am not supporting any queer movements. But I have said before that I have met a few "decent/normal" queers since my being single. Now when I was looking for a place and entered my criteria, I was getting irritated at the fact that the only apts available were down in the, so called, Village. Eventually and part of me, really really wanting to get out of Regal Rd, I took the nicer one that I found, in that area. But as I think of the good and the bad, the new and ridding of the old, I think it will be good. I think sometimes that of all places to end up, but there is lots around me, in the sense of being, right downtown. I dont point my nose up to queer joints, any longer. Rob isnt around to make me think, that all the men in the establishment, are just like him. Theyre not. There are guys as Ive said who are a total 360 from what Rob was, and thats whom Im talking about. I know I will meet some characters as the months pass. Ive been here 10 years and know minimal people, I expect the same and have no issue with it. At times Ive felt uncomfortable in an odd way, waltzing down the main drag, but eventually it will be home. People will eventually get to know that I am from the area and it will feel like home. It will be nice to be in a central location. Part of me thinks of how it would be if I saw Rob, and really, he should cross the road or get out of my sight, to avoid any, attention seeking" embarrassment - he he - Really. I ended my letter to Rob last summer with, "Life will never be the same, as it was again" - and that is soooo fine with me.
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