And That Is Why I Hate...

OK so, the other day I had some friends over who hadn't been here in a while. We caught up on what was new, what was up and coming etc - I was asked about Rob, which still happens occasionally. These days I could care less what people ask about etc. I am harsh with my words as Ive said before. I told my friend that I have told mutual friends that I don't want to hear a thing about Rob unless it is negative. I told my company that the only news I want is negative things, if not death on Robs behalf. My friend said to me, "I don't think I could dislike anyone to the point of wanting them dead.", I said, me neither, generally. I went on to explain how there have been 2 people who Ive wished that on, one is dead and Rob the other. I went on to tell her, it wasn't just the lying. The fact that he went off with other guys, then back to my bed is what I'm livid about. How I never touched another man in the 13 years we were together. I didn't sleep with anyone or get off with anyone. How when things did happen, I told Rob, I held back nothing. He put me at risk of deadly diseases. He may not see that, but that again is his own denial. I told him many times while we were together, and we had these unfaithful "episodes", that if i ever caught anything, i would kill him with my bare hands, and i would. No one is to put me at risk at any time. Rob did just that. The one person on this entire earth who I thought I could trust, turned out to be the most untrustworthy and irresponsible human being. After all the years, all the lies I was told and again, the possibility of jeopardising my health due to his irresponsibility is why I despise that man. If he had just lied i may be less bitter. But for the fact that he put me in a horrible position and abused me in the sense of my being taken for a fool...is the reason there is absolutely no need for him. Regardless of the days, months and years that pass, that is something I will never forget. It is something that is unforgivable.
And that is why I hate.
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