Robs pathetic year...will continue

As another year comes to an end for Rob, I'm trying to think what good he had/has done to himself or others for that matter, while in my life at least. For the most part of the year, Rob has been history, but until 2009 comes to an end, he will be part of the end of this decade. Our last together in any way, shape or form. He lost his best friend, was caught out and proved to be a liar, ended up back into(useless) therapy, ended up back home with mum and dad. Was there any good? As far as I know he never even ventured out of the country, but that I cant prove and really don't care, its just what I know, until told otherwise. I wont say that there had been many highlights in 2009, but can surely hold my head high for what has happened, for things I changed. Had I not stepped up when I did, we would probably be in the same position we were a year ago. Living fake lives, unhappy lives, sadly routined lives, something we lived for the last 7, 8 years. I have special people in my life, thankfully. As I mentioned in earlier posts, 2010 will be a new year, a new beginning for me. I think and hope, that for Rob it will be a lonely year. A year to realise how he messed up his own life, how he tried to drag me down with him. A year to realise, finally, that he cant get away with things hes done. He fooled me for along time, that has come to an end. A year of misery as he has deserved, for a long time now, is hopefully what await him. The beginning of his 40's was the beginning of a new life for him as well. A shady life, deceitful life, maybe an honest life? But that would make it a trashy life. He must be used to life without me, as I am used to life without him. With still no desire to be in the same area with him, I'm sure he must feel the same, but if only for fear of what I may say or do. 41 and 2010 for Rob will carry on as the past few years have, you cant teach an old dog new tricks, and that's exactly what Rob is, "an old do" who does "tricks" - Some things will never change as they never did. Robs existence will continue, to me, to be, pitiful and pathetic regardless of any changes he may make. He could do nothing to redeem himself, not in my eyes, not that Id want him to, just saying in passing. Although I don't think of him like I used to when I first kicked him out of here and out of my life, I still get full of rage at the thought of him. Again, he cant feel this towards me when I didn't do what he did to me, as friends or lovers. Another miserable year for Rob up ahead - more than likely and I'm chanting for that!
Robs pathetic year...will continue for years to come...
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