A Wolf in Sheeps Clothing...

Years ago I used to work in a different dept than I do these days...My old boss asked me this morning, "Your bitch still driving you into work?" - I told her I haven't seen him since May of this year. She was surprised as she thought we had a great "post relationship" friendship - so did I until May. I went on to explain how we had been getting on much better the last 4, 5 months prior to May, and I was thinking, possibly hoping, to try and reconcile, as he was sounding like he was heading in that direction as well from things he would say to me, how he would act etc - that was quickly shattered upon my return and my "findings". I went on to tell her a nutshell version of how he is a wolf in sheep's clothing. He's not what he appears to be. That he can play all sweet and innocent and what not with others, but not with me. I know the real Rob, most don't. She was surprised at hearing his sex chat calls, his hooks ups, worse than that the possibility of putting ME at risk of some STD. She went on about her shock at the situation. She asked me why he would lie to me?? Ive asked myself that a million times. All I can think of his utter self humiliation and embarrassment at the kind of person he really is, a typical, promiscuous, self loathing, faggot...I found out. I told her how I asked him if he slept with anyone, to which he responded, "no"...She said, "well that's good"...I responded with, "No...", that I then asked, "Did you suck some guys cock and come back to me and kiss me on MY lips" - to which the response was, Yes", her jaw dropped. Partially due to the language and partially at Robs response. She said she felt bad for me and I told her I was over it. I told her how I was completely honest with him, telling him when I had fallen in lust with someone while together, how Id slept with someone after our relationship fell apart etc. I didn't lie to him, I didn't with hold that kind of info as I couldn't. I told her that when he responded yes to my asking him if he had gone down on another guy, that was in reference to our earlier years together, as I knew he was fooling around be hind my back. Friends can attest to these suspicions, early on in the relationship. I knew he was cheating or had cheated. I told her of my holiday in May of this year, and what he had been up to, in my apt, in my bed, while I was away, she said "What an awful creature, I'm so shocked" - I told her how whe Rob wanted to have sex he would make advances towards me, but when I did, it fell on deaf ears. How he thought I was just a shag buddy, that he forgets is his style and not mine. I was who had sex with when his "tricks" werent around, but had no idea. When people know the truth about it, the real truth, not some sugar coated version, they're opinions of Rob are brutal. Which to me, puts a small smirk on my face. She went on to say, "When you said leaving him was the best thing you did, I thought you were still hanging out" - I told her, as of May, that day when I asked him to go back to my apt, clear it of his things and what not, it was over. Hearing him finally confess, weeks later, to many infidelities, was when the sadness was lifted. I stopped crying. I was hurt but the tears stopped and anger moved in. Hearing that as Ive said to many and written a million times, proved to me that he didn't have the love for me that I had for him. Love for him quickly died with confirmation of such lewd acts behind my back were confessed.
At times I think of him when it was his birthday, the fact that Christmas is just around the corner and I have zero feelings for him. I may miss the companionship, but I didn't deserve what he did to me and for that, I will never forgive or ever want him in my life, to any degree ever again. There is no place in my life for such trash. Ive been crossed before, as we all have, but never to this degree. Again as I always say, trust is the biggest thing for me, and I lost that with Rob. He is no different that these sleaze bags Ive seen trolling out of the bath houses at ridiculous hours of the night. That is what Rob has always been, it just took me 15 years to realise that and do something about it -
Rob was and always will be, A Wolf in Sheep's Clothing -
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