Proof is in HIS Writings?

Well this weekend brought on a major house/holiday cleaning. I finally attempted my bdrm closet, not the clothes, everything else. Boxes and boxes of memories, photos, nick nacs and more. I have these 2 huge boxes sitting in there, that I've taken from apt to apt. I want to try and narrow it down to one box, on the floor of my closet, not the top shelf. Sifting through cards, letters, school folders was fun, took hours. I came across countless cards from the last 20+ years. I found a card that my parents gave me when I turned 16, just to give u an idea of what I have stashed away. Apart from those, I found numerous letters and cards from Rob. It was easy to throw most away. Any photograph I found went in the garbage. Pictures of us together from day one were stashed deep in these boxes. All in the bin. The cards were priceless and I had to keep a few, not for sentimental value, but 99% of the cards I found, had Rob apologising for the years events. Words such as "I know its hard to trust me", "I'm sorry for the things Ive done over the year." and "You are my everything, I love you with every cell in my body" - I kept these just as a reminder to myself that it was Rob. His words written out, asking for forgiveness, thanking me for not leaving and sticking around. For being there for him. Him wanting to spend the rest of his life with me. All the while, when you read into the letters and cards, you can see a total admission of guilt from "actions" throughout the years. I had to laugh at my own stupidity when I would see the dates noted on these cards. One from 1995, which would have been 2 years or so into our relationship, writing to me how it was a "hell of a year" but we pulled through. Rob has always been the same character and never changed. Ive changed as of today, not wanting to let that happen again, ever if I can avoid it. Allot of the cards brought me back to the time these were given, not in a sentimental value again, but rather thinking of what he was apologising for. Most I recalled as its all burned into my memory. I felt good about myself, knowing I did the right thing my ridding him out of my life, finally. I put up with his shit for so long. Robert was a liar from day one. I'm sure if I could grill him as I wanted to years ago, I would find out lots more that I had no idea went on. Proof of his "mistrust" are good to keep, again, only to remind me, that I did nothing wrong, definitely not as early on as he did. I changed over the years and these cards can explain why. Why I became more harsh with him, especially near the end. My dumping him and kicking him out, was the best move and by reading these cards and letters, would show anyone as to why I did what I did. As Ive mentioned countless times in this blog, Rob pulled the wool over my eyes. Rob thought I would be some subservient "partner" in the sense that I would put up with this? He's wrong, was wrong and always will be wrong. There is nothing to Robert as a partner, as a friend. He's the type of person you don't want to get close to as he is a selfish, sexless, careless, horrible human being.
One write up I found was from myself, a journal entry I printed out. It was dated 1998 -my expressing the lack of sex in our relationship. That was about 5 years into our relationship, he was definitely straying at this point and my writings proved that and reminded me of how long he was fucking around behind my back. All the while, him asking for forgiveness back then, let alone what I would discover years later.
Hatred in my life is focused on one person and one person alone, who deserves nothing positive. The Proof is in his writings"
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