Birthday Bliss!!

Out with 38 and in with 39!
This birthday, to me, in an odd way, signifies a new beginning. A new solo adventure. Rob knew me from the ages of about 23 to 38, a long time. I go into 39, single, on my own and with anticipation. Ive reached a personal goal just the other day. On Nov 25th 2008, I decided to start watching myself, healthwise, size wise etc. I started my new "regime", weighing in at 188lbs, I now am thrilled to say, I am 167lbs. Thats over 20lbs! I did it. Although Im still not thrilled at my size, its a personal thing, Im glad I was able to acheive this. So in that respect, 39 is a off to a good start. I have a few dinner plans this upcoming week, thru til weeks end. So it will be exhausting, but each and every one that I am spending these times with, are worthwile, true people. People I love and trust. I dont need expensive gifts, to be showered with gifts. Rob would always do that, and now in retrospect it was out of guilt, not joy, well most of it. In a way, 39 is starting out on a more realistic look on life. As I mentioned Rob tried living a false lifestyle in many ways, or he went about it, goes about it wrong. Im able to still acquire most things I want, so financially its the same. I have a few social friends, which is a great start to "getting out there". I plan for more changes in 2010 as I mentioned earlier on in this blog. Ive done things already, that I was putting off til next spring/summer, so Im a few steps ahead and its a nice feeling.
38, was a shitty year. Too many dramas. My holiday to London was a highlight of my 38th. Rob ruined my mid year with his skankiness, but I rid myself of him. Late 38, was a time of change, of acceptance, of independance. I congratulate myself on small goals thus far and things can only get better from here, and in many more ways, as some already have ;)
Happy Birthday to me!!
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