Thanx :)

Days come and go so quickly these days.
Happier days go by. Life without Rob seems more and more fun. I'm enjoying work more and my friends, my real friends. My mind is more stimulated these days. Gone are the endless nights of sitting in front of the TV, Robs fave and only past time. With minimal TV in my life, there seems much more to do. Life was stalled when Rob was around, as life was just that, in front of the TV. TV overruled our social life, our sex life, our life in general. If it wasn't for travel, we had pretty much - no social life. My social life always took place outside the country, never in my own city. Going out with friends and experiencing living is such a new thing, such a fun thing. Thinking of all the wasted weekends, closed up in the apt, with a lazy sod like Rob, sucked years out of my life. I feel rejuvenated! There have been very few "wasteful" weekends since being on my own. Apart from Rob sex shows on the Internet, I believe his life is still in front of the TV. It may not be, he may be living it up with his new found "freedom", something he must have wanted years back, but he chose to cling onto me for years, as just a habit. I told Rob that it wasn't love that kept him with me, but more the fact that I was a habit. I was a place to come hang out, a place to have a drink, a place to smoke up...and a place, when he had dry spells, to use me for his repulsive queer desires. He can carry on with his new life and I, as always, wish him all the misery life has to offer. I think, and I am starting to live it up now. I'm no longer tied down byt false love, or false friendship for that matter. I was thinking the other day..I cant say I have a best friend now. I do have great friends, but a best friend no. Someone to be close with, like I was when I was with Rob, when I was a true friend, him all the while being a sheep in wolves clothing, I don't have and honestly, don't want. Rob on the other hand, cant possibly have, or deserve for that matter, true friends. Like Ive mentioned before, he was jealous of the "attention" I gained with friends, but that goes back to personalities. Mine was and still is more colorful. The only person who really knows Rob, is me..I know what kind of horrible human he is and no one else. No one experienced the bullshit that was my life, the last 5, 6 or more, years. As Ive mentioned, I'm glad he is removed from my life. Never wanting to see him, pushes me forward to move on. He said a long time back that I have moved on, due to my solo travels..at that time I was still stuck in routine, but travel is my sanity. I can now say that I have fully moved on, and thrilled that life is better than it was, compared to the last couple of years. Thanks Rob, for sucking the life out of me the last few years - and Thanks for taking off, like the coward you truly are, it all worked out to my benefit. If I had know that telling him that I wish Id never met him, and that I wished was dead, would have made him disappear as quickly as it did, I would have uttered those words years back - Had I only have known, the Real Rob..
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