An Awesome Night...

Pride 2010 is upon us...I'm not one to scream my pride, that's not my style...but I love a good party and could care less whose throwing it and the why...lol. Last night was no exception. I went out with a "new" friend. We met up for a bite earlier in the day and then he decided he wanted to get together later on in the evening, I obliged. The night was spent laughing like I haven't in eons. A wicked sense of humor had me in stitches for the most part of the evening and early morning. The night was ended an a great note, plans to see each other again. This friend & I have been yakking for about a year or so on MSN...for whatever reason when he messaged me yesterday asking to go for a bite I said yes, I never do that, but was feeling up to a challenge. We hit it off, which I guess is why he asked to meet up later on. Back at my place after a few drinks, watching the madness down below was nice...sorta romantic as well. Now I made it clear I don't "hook up" - so I stick to my word. I guess psychologically its sorta playing hard to get at the same time. I wont be any ones play thing...that's my decision to make. So if they re interested they'll go for the chase ha ha. I had a feeling the way he was looking at me during lunch that he may be interested. Anyways, the night ended with a lip lock and got real close to it going further, but didn't want to be a hypocrite, not to myself at least, so it stopped. He was sweet, as he left the apt, waiting for the elevator, I being the good host waited as he waited for the lift. Taking as long as it did, he came back for another "good night kiss" - it was very sensual but had to stop it from going beyond. I cant let anyone in to that extent, that easily. People talk ya know ha ha. But its nice it was a great feeling. Something Ive missed for a while. I wouldn't technically call it a date, but in an odd way it was. He asked a million questions about my ex, and the lifestyle we led. He was sorta shocked at some of the things I said, but chalked it all up to experience, bad at that, but none the less...We left off with plans to meet up again. It makes me nervous as I never know if I will give in and have that be the wrong thing. I don't want to shag and just be left, but then I'm not looking to get involved, so what is my hesitation? I want someone to be with me cuz they are attracted to some part of me - I don't want be just "a body", there for play and then go, I had enough of that with Rob. I'm cool with 1 night stands, but that's usually with complete strangers - last night was different to a degree, getting to learn about one another, interested in what we each had to say, it was different and nice and didn't want to spoil that... I will carry on with the "festivities" this weekend, meeting up with other friends, so maybe it will take away from thoughts of last night. I haven't done the pride things since about 6-7 years back, with Rob and it was dull at that, so i never wanted to venture out, but last night was awesome and if its any indication of the rest of the weekend, I will definitely need Monday to recoup -
Thanks for an awesome night, u know who you are....
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