Im Living In True Happiness..

Yesterday I went to the wedding of 2 dear friends of mine. We all knew it would happen and it was great to see the day finally come and them 2 so happy, was also an honor to be invited, so to them I say, thank you.
Looking at the 2 of them, thinking back all the years Ive known them, theyve been together as long as Ive known them. Regardless, they have ups and downs, do separate things, their own lives and their lives together. It's nice to see and nice to know it exists out there, true love and happiness. If I have to think back to my days with Rob, there was so much wrong. Ive said it a million times before on this blog, actually I will continue to always say it, as its how the cookie crumbled. There was no trust and thats the biggest thing for me, and people in my life. I dont like liars and people I cant trust. My newly married friends never had an issue with this. Years back when we were all "dating" our other halves, at the time, we used to be called, "The First Wives Club". Lunch would be a bitch fest about the old "ball and chain". My main deal with Rob was sex and trust. Others would have issues with the other half, working late too often, money woes and so on. Never did the gal pals I lunched with, ever mention turst as an issue. Catching them with numbers, pills in purses, strange messages, emails sent. Rob was the one guilty of these actions. For this reason, well the trust issue, for this reason and only this reason, our time together was a sham as Ive mentioned before. Wishing to be as happy as I saw my friends yesterday, was not possible with Rob. It could never be as the single most important key element wasnt there and hadnt been for too many years. Ive said before how Rob and I were in "habit" form, there no longer was a relationship per se, it was going through the motions and that became tiresome after his antics never let up. The year and a bit I have been alone, has been adventurous, at times, confusing, a time of self discovery, the day to day survival in the big city... making it through everyday - not at all like the last 15 before this. Im a different person, a person I love, a person and a character I enjoy. Relationships, though not in one and no desire, the thought of them terrifies me. My "trysts" sometimes scare me as Ive met some great guys, in many ways, and Im a sucker and can fall fast. Intelligent, different, sexy and sweet and all real men. The different part is probably one of the most attractive traits in a man. Different to Rob was almost taboo. Funny how things turn, the road you end up traveling on.
In ending this entry...Im thrilled for my friends who fully committed to each other yesterday, I wish them a life of happiness and its nice to know, for the time being at least, in my life, Im living in true happiness!
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