Grateful For This Experience...

This week started on an interesting route. Both exhausting and fun at the same time. Having a get together with a special friend of mine, which resulted with my friend spending the night. Now this is someone fairly new in my life and an interesting character to say the least. We are in the "getting to know one another" phase of this friendship, testing waters, hanging out or going for drinks. A few romantic interludes have occurred, I will admit. Most, if any sexual trysts I've had, have resulted, unfortunately as one timers...So the fact that its on going is new. Sexually, with having Rob as my sexual partner for about 15 years, thats what I compare to or associate with etc. Can I tell you how stiff Rob looks next to this guy and not in a good way?! I was always more sexual than Rob, wanting to try new things, or the more aggressive one. Rob was boring that way. Rob could only be touched in certain places, wouldnt let you "help" him out but it went on. I described one tryst with this new friend to a gal pal as, pornographic, spilling into the next morning. A sexual energy like Robs pales in comparison and think, that more than likely he is still the same. the term, "being with a man" has taken on a different meaning to me. Passion is revived, passion that died way too long back. Meeting someone with such a different character is nice. Not ones that live by protocol...Rob was always trying to "do the right thing", but it, at times irritated me. Im more one to not go or attend something if I didnt want to, and could care less what people would say. Not the best of attitudes maybe, but thats just me :) This new guy seems that way as well. Its nice to want to get to know someone you want to get to know. Someone who wants to see you, its a great feeling. This morning, could possibly the last time I see this friend, you never know, but he made me experience something I hadnt in such a long time. Feeling attractive and interesting is a new feeling as well. With Rob, I felt unattractive, non sexual and pretty much just an object that shared a living space. With this new friend of mine, I feel attractive, intelligent, witty and sensual. Im taking things slower than ever and again, anything can happen in a good way or bad way, but am grateful for this "different" experience.
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