Im Not All THAT Mad :)

Well another weekend of fun and laughs with friends, catching up and getting out of control. Logging on to facebook this morning, some of my "Acacia Africa" friends were on line. It was nice to catch up, it had been a while. Talking about other holidays we have taken since Africa etc...One friend, a queer one, was asking if there was any "fun" in my life. I responded with "yes" as there has been and will continue to be. My friend went on to say, "glad that things are working out with you and Rob" - ?? I said, "oh no, not with Rob". I was asked how he was, I said that I hadn't spoken to him since last July, that we were through, completely. I got the "why what happened" - Tired of talking about it in depth at least, I told them how Rob wanted his cake and to eat it at the same time, as he had been doing so for the last 10+ years. I got the "sorry to hear, what happened" - again a nutshell version was given, of how Rob was a cheater and liar and not someone to trust. That he's deceitful and a horrid specimen. Told of the adventures I had in London while Rob carried on his own adventures here in my bed, in my apt. My friend went on to tell me that I didn't need that in my life. I told him I knew, this is why I kicked Rob's ass out and rid myself of him.
I told him that the last few months have been all about me, a selfish period and that is how it was going to stay for a long time. He went on to tell me that I will find the man of my dreams. That's not something I want at all...I have, when I want, male companionship when I want or need it, but its just that and goes no further. As I mentioned to the 22 year old I spent time with on my last trip, men are nothing to me and I have not felt anything for any man Ive met over the last few months and Ive met a few. There is the odd one or 2 who would like more with me but I cant bring myself to let anyone, that into my life. This is my life now, my time and no one is involved in it. Its sweet to see people who genuinely want to see me happy - Thing is, I am happy. I never would have thought that I would be again, but I am. Life seemed impossible without Rob after our breakup, its funny that at this point in my life, Ive erased the time we had together. Its good to be me these days. Even loneliness has flow the coop..I have new friends I can have fun with and I have my time to myself when I want it. 2010 as I mentioned was all about me, and it will only get better.
While I was out on Friday with a gal pal, she went on about her ex, in great detail I must add...As we stepped outside for a fag, she said to me, "If I saw him(the ex) now, Id push him in front of that streetcar and then kick him after he went down", I said, "finally someone who understands". That is exactly how I feel...and my friend left her ex 15 years back..and still hates. I still hate Rob and would wish the same on him, as my friend wished for her ex...
You see I'm not all that mad ha ha -
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