Good Feelings, Good Times & All By Myself

Well back from a weeks holiday and what an interesting time was had. I tend to compare new adventures I go on, to those I unfortunately experienced with Rob. The last few have been so different. While with Rob, mingling with others was set to a minimum, for whatever reason. His insecurities, embarrassment?? This last holiday, I met some wonderful people. People who were genuinely wanting to hang out with me. Creating quick bonds like that, is what I love about meeting new people. I know that should I venture to their parts of the globe, or vice versa, a door will be open for me, as it will for them as well. Not having to worry about getting out of hand while away was nice, not answering to no one. That whole, "I respond to no one" was in full effect. I met a cute guy who enjoyed my company in many ways as I did his. We hung out a night or two. I was actually vile to him the first time we hung out. I explained that it was the booze talking an past experiences tha made me say certain things. To me, now, men are nothing too important to me, a fun night out maybe, good company while grabbing a drink or working the dance floor. This guy, when we hung out the second time, I realised what a nice guy he really was. There was a big age difference as well as miles between us, otherwise Im sure we could have been good friends. Its nice to meet someone like that, who feels the same in regards to things like sex, relationships, friends. It gives me hope that there can be good people out there. I had him on my mind all day on the day of departure. Having had 0 sleep and been with him til the second I needed to leave, weighed in on those thoughts. But the entire time we hung out was in an odd way, "special" - It was nice to feel someone who wanted to be with me, not wanting leave me, procrastinate to leave me and go his own way. Feeling special like that happens every now and then but a good feeling none the less. Feelings like that, between Rob and I died years ago and there was no way of getting that back. Trust was gone a long time back, but strange how you can feel a bond with someone/some people after a short period of time together. You can sort of suss out the good from the bad. I lived with, and through the bad for too many years, its time to bring on the good. Have faith in people, have faith in men. Its a feeling I missed and enjoying living while away on holiday. With Rob I told him I was habit, there was nothin there, he knows it, I knew it, it was routine. A change from that routine is such a welcomed change. I hope to meet others like I did on my holiday, Im sure I will and for that, I look forward to the year ahead. I said 2010 would be "my year" and so far its started on the right foot. Good feelings, good times and all by myself -
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