Summer 2010 - I Made It My Own...

The last weekend of summer 2010 is here. Summers not officially over but its on its way out when this weekend rolls around. Ive had and am continuing to have fun, more fun this past summer, than Ive had in a long long time. I have lived my life to the extreme. Ive met some great people, been out and social like the person I always was but was suppressed while with Rob. This past summer Ive proved to myself that there is life to live and things to learn and explore. I continue with great friendship with Tim...someone Ive truly come to adore as a person and this he knows. Jonathon and I continue to get to know each other and see each other o n a fairly regular basis. Tim is a fun, yet conservative guy who gets on with me like a house on fire. I certain respects, there are similar qualities between Rob and Tim. The difference being that Tim is a completely honest gentleman with me. Hides nothing and we are just friends. Having gone through the odd drama while having him in my life, hes proven to be there for me in the most trivial of dramas and for that Im greatful. Jonathon is a "different" character and am going up and down on getting to know him. The thought of having someone in my life again in a different capacity is still frightening to me. I dont want to relive, as Ive said a million times over, what Rob put me through. This slow process of getting to know Jonathon is at a pace Im ok with and want it to flourish more. We both like each other, have fun together and enjoy each others company so a good start. For many years, through summer and most of the year really...after the weekends, as Ive said, there was nothing to ever say, we never did anything and lived like monks pretty much. Staying home getting high. Sure I still like doing that, but there is a world out there, life is out there, people are out there. We were shut ins and pathetically wasted many years. Im petty sure Robs pitiful existence is pretty much the same. I'd be blown away to hear otherwise.
Life is faster these days both good and bad I guess. Im glad that I am able to live how I want and make it, no troubles. I really see now a year+ on that Rob really wasnt any good for me in any capacity, well maybe as a driver and one who paid half the rent. I still hate that man for being what he is and doing what he did. I never think of him and glad on that front as well. When there are such wonderful characters in my life like, Tim and Jonathon and few others, why would I dwell on the tragic life I led years back with Rob. A learning experience it was, for all the wrong lessons and reasons, yet something that is stashed away deep in a corner as something more of an embarrassment and waste of my years and energy.
Summer 2010 - I worked it, I owned it and I made it my own!